My Story...

Every day in my life i dream that  i could live in a place where i can found peace, where i listen the birds sing instead of bombs and guns, where I don't have to fight for my life in order to survive I have to do things that I don't want to do but i have so I can be able to protect a place that i don't own but at least serving and protecting many lifes of my people.  Day by day I have to walk away from the people that I love, from the things that I love to do.  My heart is tearing with ever step i take.  Every day in my life Im sorry for what did to someone , sorry for the pain i have caused, i know my actions caused your heart to break like many of you have done with many of mine but you should know something my heart broke long before i broke yours.  The darkness consumes me every single night feeling my heart cold, my soul numb and my being became ice.  I am wishing that the next day there will be a light to guide my way.  Crying,  screaming, talking, repeating everything over and over again is driving me crazy.